today was my last day at charter communications. thank fucking god. this job was constantly frustrating, at times tedious, deeply enraging, and primarily boring. this job was a massive deal for me. about 2 years and a month ago i quit a job making 63k a year at a law firm doing fuck all and being around the worst people of all time without a new job lined up. in the next month i applied to about 200~ jobs and didn’t get any leads. i got a call about a job fair at charter and showed up, interviewed with a few teams, and then got a job offer from my future boss. took all of 2 hours. this job let me do basically whatever i wanted within the extant infrastructure: i built new databases, adjusted our current ones, wrote scripts to automate annoying tickets, standardized our security authentication modules, created coding standards and wrote git hooks to implement those standards, studied ds&a / networking / low level computing / linux systems administration / terraform / docker / kubernetes / ansible / javascript / vmware / AWS / morpheus. i wrote documentation for common lvm use cases, documented existing code, refactored old projects, designed new projects, prevented a few catastrophes, worked way too hard on a couple projects.
i was really good at this job. i received very high marks on my performance reviews and my output was very high. and it was boring! it was so fucking boring. part of why i did so much was because if i didn’t invent shit to do there would be nothing for me to do for weeks at a time. for example: since january 1st, i haven’t had a single project to work on, and i have been assigned about 20~ tickets. each ticket takes me about 30~ minutes, so roughly 10 hours of work. spread over 7 weeks. just a ridiculously small amount of work.
my separation from the job comes because i found a new position, at p&g. i’ll be a virtual desktop engineer. i will work in the IT department and i’ll be responsible for the engineering, administration, management, and maintenance of the virtual desktop infrastructure. i’ll have about 10 people under me, and i’ll be making about $135k total compensation. the benefits are good, with 18 days of PTO per year and 12 company holidays. good health care at a reasonable (for the USA) price. lots of other perks.
the p&g position is in ohio, which was by design because leah and i are trying to buy a house in ohio. we move next week, leaving denver after 4 years. we’ll stay with my mom for a couple days while we find an apartment and then we’ll do that month to month while we find a house. hopefully we have a house by the end of the summer.
we’re driving to ohio with bennett and his father, and then they will continue driving to new jersey. i am not looking forward to being apart from bennett again. it is difficult to explain how nice it is to be around him for me. i love bennett. we’re buying his car, so we’ll have two cars which means leah won’t be stuck at home when i go to work every day.
leah and i are both excited to move and to get out of denver. we are looking forward to being around my family more often, we’re excited to eat at different restaurants, and we are especially excited to buy a house. if you live in or near cincinnati and know of any houses for sale which leah and i might be interested please reach out to me. same is true if you know of any apartments that do month to month leases and are not shitholes.
soon these feelings of anxiety and worry and excitement will be flattened and compressed into the small cake of memory and i will only be able to peel off flakes and crumbs of this experience and i will look back at it with the crudeness of reminiscence and remember only the excitement or only the anxiety, only the pain or only the optimism. i will struggle to hold onto the memories of my coworkers saying goodbye to me, or the absent-minded conversations with leah and bennett which inevitably return to discussing our favorite restaurants in denver, or the annoyance i feel at having to pack so hastily. i doubt i will be able to hold onto the memory of the cashier at carrera’s tacos saying she hopes i have a safe journey, or how strange it is to have no one else to say goodbye to. i am not so worried about this move, it does not matter to me if this is the right decision or not. i am not concerned for the future or at all anxious that i am leading leah down the wrong path. i feel comfortable in the knowledge that my life needs no optimization or improvement and yet that we must move forward.
playlist:
DUCKS LTD. - Gleaming Spires
E-40 - Trump Change
Shygirl - mr useless (feat. SG Lewis)
Tapir! - The Nether (Face To Face)
Mk.gee - You got it
Chelsea Wolfe - House of Self‐Undoing
Alex De Grassi - Swordfish
Angry Blackmen - FNA
Katy Kirby - Hand to Hand
R.A.P. Ferreira; Fumitake Tamura - begonias
Jeanne Lee - Sundance
Kelela - Raven (Agazero remix feat. Bbymutha)
xaviersobased - KeepItGoin (Prod. by xaviersobased)
Searows - I have more than enough
Camp Lo - Black Connection
Monica - Angel Of Mine
Mood - Tunnel Bound
Rebe - dame dame dame eso
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youtube: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL4bUgvWbrZGL3nBRfMb5nZdx3ZuYc33VM
We are so looking forward to having you local again. What an amazing amount of work you accomplished at Charter! P&G is lucky to have you--as are we! ❤️😘