leah and i made it to ohio :) and we are living with my mom again. i started my new job a couple weeks ago and i feel weird about it. the work i am doing is not interesting to me and the culture of the company is god awful and suffocating. i am frustrated by the job because the company is so large, and they are known for treating their employees well, so when i tell people what i do they have the impression that it is a job i ought to be excited about at a company i will stay with for a long time. for me however, this job feels like a lateral, or mildly backwards, step in my career. i want to be doing more technical work and to be developing my skills. instead it seems that i will be managing a help desk and working on managerial projects. i wrote some python and some powershell last week, but everything i worked on was for the sake of processing and analyzing some spreadsheets. the code was irrelevant and i could have accomplished the task more quickly if i was simply better at excel. i was hoping that my next job after charter would be an opportunity to apply the things i’ve spent the past few years learning but that is not happening and instead i am working for a company i hate doing work that i don’t give a shit about. it feels bad and i am struggling to express this to people in a meaningful way because they are all significantly more excited about this job than i am.
i have been working through the rust book lately and it’s been a lot of fun. it’s conceptually difficult, the syntax is foreign, and i am not familiar with the problems which rust solves, so the decisions made in rust’s design do not make sense to me. all that said, it’s great. the documentation is great, the design is thoughtful and well executed, the compiler is well built and quite helpful, and it’s cool to learn a compiled / statically typed language.
leah and i are going to buy a house soon and then we will live in it. we’re so ready to have our own spaces and to garden and to plant trees and to host events and barbecues.
i am tired and i don’t have my desktop set up so i am not going to make a playlist. listen to bright future by adrianne lenker and let me know how you like it. i will write another post soon more about my family and some other more important things.